Today marks my second full day of bed rest so far, and I'm already sick of it. It seems harder this time than it did last time for some reason. Maybe because last time I thought the end was sooner than it actually was, and this time I know what's most likely to happen. I'm not really sure. I'm just really praying this doesn't have to last as long as it did with Lorelai. One thing that is definitely hard is not being able to play with the kids like I used to. This is especially hard because of how each of the kids have a "favorite" parent. I hate that it's that way, but right now that's how it is. Asher's favorite is me and has always been me since I can even remember. Lorelai's favorite is Jon and has been for a while. So as you can imagine it's tough for me to have Jon home because it just makes me see Lorelai's favoritism come out more. I'm afraid she's going to get spoiled by having daddy home so often and become more attached to him. I know it's normal for kids to go through phases like this - I'm just hoping it ends soon for her. Obviously I'm aware that Jon gets hurt by this kind of thing at times too with Asher, but there is a difference between how the two of them communicate their favoritism. It almost seems like Lorelai thinks she can only love one of us - mommy or daddy. So she'll tell me that Asher loves me and she loves daddy. Asher has grown up enough to know that he should and does love us both. I'm hoping that Lorelai will sooner rather than later realize that as well. It hurts when I ask her if she loves me and she says, "No, I love daddy."
Today has really been uneventful. Lorelai has actually been kind of sick lately. This is the third time since the week before Christmas, and I think she might need to go to the doctor on Monday if she's not better. I'm actually concerned about the possibility of asthma. She's had signs of it in the past (according to the doctor), but has never been diagnosed. At night and at nap time her cough is definitely at its worse. Today she threw up in her crib during her nap for the second day in a row due to all of the coughing. Thankfully she barely threw up, but needless to say her sheets and blankets had to be washed two days in a row. Jon got her some new medicine this afternoon because we ran out. He got a different kind this time, but neither has seemed to help.
Lorelai is also very into taking her clothes off by herself these days. Jon was getting ready to give both of the kids a bath this evening, but had to do something in the kitchen with our dinner when all of a sudden Lorelai came in completely naked. I guess she was really ready to go take her bath! And please excuse her sad looking face - she is sickly after all. :)
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